35 years late...the old same story.

You notice that you are 35 when...

your skin and you heart changed a lot,
but you are the same,
your heart and your brain changed a lot,
but you think and feel the same,
your body is almost the same,
but you changed a lot,

you feel excited, but not afraid about life,

you are in hurry to be happy,
you are in hurry to work,
you are in hurry to study,
you are... relax for dancing all night long.

you are in love, although you are alone,
you are alone, although you have friends,
you have friends, although you feel alone,
you are in love, alone and have friends
at the same time.

you feel young,
but you are old,
you are old,
but you feel young.
you are old and young
at the same time.

you're in hurry to be here,
you're in hurry to be there,
you're in hurry to anywhere.

you feel 35, but you know that you can be less and you can be more
than this.

Bye, bye 2008.

2008 is about to finish its journey.
In 2008, I left my 35 years.
What does 2009 will bring to me?
My 36, sure, but... what else?

*** Sex ***

I can't think about marriage or bf without sex. Of course love and marriage and any relationship are more than sex, u have to gain the life, there's the routine, troubles etc... but no sex ... I can't. When I hear friends who have no sex for long, long time in their relationships and they r totally sad about this... well... what can I say? I can't agree with some relationship only based on sex, but... without it? never? Oh, no. We r so young to forget about this! i think is a bad signal about all.

*** I am not happy but I have a husband ***

This is a famous book and acting. I think this title is totally funny and I have a lot of friends who could be described at this situation but there's a lot of friends too who is living real marriages and, because of this, happy and sad experiences from this, at the same time, once being alive is expected to be like that. I love marriages, but the real ones. When sad friends say sad things about men and marriages, I just think about my friends who are living real marriages and being happy most of the time.

*** Marriage ***

What do u want for u? A marriage, a husband? A husband, a love story? Trying to be happy, living frustrate? Sex, TV? Feeling alive or dying? I know that there's no prince, but it is not reason enough to stay beside a frog. THEY can help u to find news options, ok? : ))))) Kidding! What I would like to say is: I am a romantic girl and I, yes, believe that is posible to find HIM, althought there's no prince. Anyway, what let me sad is seeing some friends living false marriages, marriages for the society... Beds and mirrors at night are cruel when u r not happy beside your boy... 
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*** Always Bridget on the Xmas.***

*** This is X-mas time. And I always remember Bridget, the movie, and her family on x-mas. Wish me luck. I will have to improve news answers for: where r your bf? r u not married yet? Let's run with my Nike for women and take all of them out from myself.

; P.

You know? Sometimes I wanna hide myself from them and their questions. Why people like to do that for constrain you? Fuck! Sometimes is hard to support it.

*** Being mom or not it's up 2 U and your body N mind.****

I think people who don't really talk with u about this but only wanna let u crazy among idiot thoughts are not sure about their love and life (bf, husband or self-estime) and feel uncomfortable when see someone pregnant or talking about this. Seeing my friends and their children let me think, sure, but let me feel happy a lot to, because when u love children and u love their good energy and beauty, if there r children, there r happiness. If u can be mom or not, and when, that's not the point. It is something to talk about with the Doctor, maybe a Psicologist, and not with this silly confuse people. At this situation, when these people say idiot things about this topic, I just listen and, If I am able to talk without fight, I say something as: "Is this your opinion? Is this your view? I'm not sure that I agree, but I will consider it... By the way, have you seen the last movie from Woody Allen..." And bla, bla, bla !!!!! ; )))) Is it easy? No. Living is society is hard. But or u will do that or u will loose all your friends because, at this kind of situation, u see their REAL view about the world, the life and themselves.

*** Baby or not baby ****

*** These days all of my friends are talking about babies or they are about to have babies... Wow! What a baby boom! At these mom's meetings, I can check how much being mom over 30 or 35 or 40 it's ok for them (and for me). It's funny because most of them say that we are living in the future, so, that's ok being mom late. But part of them don't belive in it. I don't know what is my side. In my opinion, life just happen. I like to think in Lauryn Hill's song when I am anxiety about that. She made this song when she was waiting for Zion. Anyway, I was having luch with a friend this week, in front of a bookstore, and I found a book called "How to be a mom after 35". I will buy it next week. What I can't  listen are silly things like: Being mom late is like become grandmother, You will be tired for play with children if you will be mom late, Every woman have problems when become mom over 30. Ok, of course, our body is almost the same as before, although medicine is not, the time pass by etc... So, there's things that changed, there's thing that are still the same and is very important talk abou this. But it's a little bit complicate believe that THESE people are able to say nice words about this topic...You know? Probably I am not right, but I believe that when u want to live anything, u just know and live. If there's some doubt about go it is because u never wanted go in fact... I wanted to be mom with a specific partner but when it was about to happen, I didn't want. So, I never wanted in fact, right? Next! : P Maybe it will happen in my life, maybe not, but I think it is a experience that I would like to live. We shall see...

*** Lauryn Hill... To Zion. ***

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*** Lauryn Hill... To Zion. ***
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Unsure of what the balance held
I touched my belly overwhelmed
By what I had been chosen to perform
But then an angel came one day
Told me to kneel down and pray
For unto me a man child would be born
Woe this crazy circumstance
I knew his life deserved a chance
But everybody told me to be smart
Look at your career they said,
"Lauryn, baby use your head"
But instead I chose to use my heart

Now the joy of my world is in Zion
Now the joy of my world is in Zion

How beautiful if nothing more
Than to wait at Zion's door
I've never been in love like this before
Now let me pray to keep you from
The perils that will surely come
See life for you my prince has just begun
And I thank you for choosing me
To come through unto life to be
A beautiful reflection of his grace
See I know that a gift so great
Is only one God could create
And I'm reminded every time I see your face

That the joy of my world is in Zion
Now the joy of my world is in Zion
Now the joy of my world is in Zion
Now the joy of my world is in Zion

Marching, marching, marching to Zion
Marching, marching
Marching, marching, marching to Zion
Beautiful, beautiful Zion
(repeat to end of song)
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*** I am 35 now. Happy BIRTHDAY for me.***

Hi, people. I am 35 now. November, 23, is my birthday and I was born in 1973. So, I decided to create this blog. It will be about next 5 years before I become 40. I hope you enjoy it and share with me your experience! Welcome!